Every advantage in the past is judged in the light of the final issue.
-Demosthenes

My body itself is in despair. Thus the mind follows.
With such a high expectation and overwhelmed by desires, burning, burning, burning.
Those who are in a position to gain satisfaction often and
those who are failing to obtain. My therapist said, ‘you can
only do one thing at a tie.’ This is so true.

When reaching out to others seems like a big work, then
it’s better to pretend with the lord. That’s not much better,
unless you are willing to imagine. One’s personal history
dictates this possibility.

I don’t have the energy (patience) to make sense.

My brain is rotting from the schizo-like turmoil. The
psycho-babble jargon;
Ultimately it’s just an energy thing.
And corrupted organs, eyes, liver, etc.

In my underwear going nowhere.
Too many texting buddies.
This is the new normal.
Agony is dumb, but I am more dumb.